In March 2020 the scientist of the ME community predicted that Covid-19 would cause ME, a lifelong post-viral fatiguing illness, in a portion of those who recovered from infection. They estimated roughly 5-10%, based on SARS1, would struggle to return to pre-infection energy levels, and that many of these would never recover. It didn't take … Continue reading I have Hipster Long Covid (I was doing it before it was cool), here’s my advice on how to avoid becoming like me
Am I depressed or flaring? I'm tired and can't get the energy to do anything. I feel sick. I have a headache. My stomach hurts. My mood is low and I'm having panic attacks and anxiety. I can't get to sleep but when I do I can't wake up. I want to cry but can't. … Continue reading Heads it wins, tails I lose
I went to my ME support group meeting yesterday. I walked in and was greeted by another member: "Hi, how have you been? You look wrecked." "Thanks, I am." It's nice when someone notices.
I want to address something that I've said a few times in the past (Here and here, and I touch on it here, for example) with isn't entirely 100% perfectly accurate. That ME/CFS won't kill you. Aside from the increases in suicide risk, there is a very small chance that with assistance/negligence from medical professionals … Continue reading The good news is it won’t* kill you. (*without help)
I'm having a good day today. Days like today are dangerous. I woke up groggy but feeling ok. The sun was shining and the weather warming up. I've been sleeping better, making myself stick to a "normalish" day/night cycle. I have also been eating a little better lately, making a conscious effort to undo the … Continue reading The danger of feeling good
While the rest of the world is seeing continued growth of COVID-19 cases, I'm safe in my bubble in the South Pacific. New Zealand spent 5 weeks in what appears to be one of the strictest lockdowns worldwide, a few more at what seems to be the most common version of lockdown, then 2 weeks … Continue reading I’m out of lockdown, so now you can buy me a coffee.
I went to an accessibility expo today. It was a bunch of companies promoting mobility aides and other accessibility and disability related equipment and services. While I was there I started pondering something that keeps coming up when I look at accessibility generally, anId for mobility aides for myself... It's like the old woman who … Continue reading There’s a hole in my bucket, dear Liza, dear Liza: failures of mobility aides to give independence
My husband was performing some music at our former school's spring fair. I knew I'd need to find something sedentary to entertain myself if the activity got to be too much, so I took my sketch kit... sure enough, I started to wilt. We made our circuit of the stalls in fits and starts before … Continue reading Artsing it Old Skool
I'm feeling almost "normal" today. The sun is shining, I got up early (for me) and stayed vertical for hours. I socialised, I helped move a wardrobe, I did laundry. I went out to buy gas for the bbq. I cooked dinner and cleaned up. I have to remind myself to be careful today because … Continue reading Feeling pleased with myself
Feeling low. I know my vit D dose is due tomorrow, so some of it will definitely relate to that. So tired. So anxious... Sad... Scared... Tired... Frustrated... Sick. Everything hurts. I can feel almost normal after sufficient rest, but doing something as little as sitting up and eating puts me back into ME mode … Continue reading I want my life back.