Heads it wins, tails I lose

Am I depressed or flaring? I’m tired and can’t get the energy to do anything. I feel sick. I have a headache. My stomach hurts. My mood is low and I’m having panic attacks and anxiety. I can’t get to sleep but when I do I can’t wake up. I want to cry but can’t.

I might be flaring or my depression may be on the rise. How am I meant to tell the difference? They usually feel very diffetent, but this feels like it’s right down the middle.

If it’s depression, I need to get up, go for a walk, go out and do things, push through it. That’s what has worked for me before.

If it’s depression, staying in bed, conserving my energy, and resting will only help it grow.

If it’s my ME flaring, I need to wrap up warm, nap, watch Netflix, eat simple high calorie foods and rest.

If it’s ME, then going for a walk and pushing through will make me much worse.

One man’s medicine is another man’s poison. In this case, both men are me.

If it’s some from column a and some from column b how do I proceed without making one or other worse?

I don’t know what to do.


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